Outta here.

There once was a day that looked like this...(job interview in Texas)

That day turned in to this...

Then I was all like this...

Then we decided to do this...


And now, the truth is...we're moving to Texas and we feel pretty darn good about it ya'll. (I've always wanted a legit excuse to say that!)
Well be living in a place called Spring or The Woodlands which is about 30 minutes north of Houston. Christian accepted a job at NOV (National Oilwel Varco) where he'll be doing all sorts of important engineering things. We leave tomorrow to go find ourselves a house and survey the neighborhoods. I'm really just hoping and praying we end up in a good neighborhood with people who want to be friends with us. I can't imagine leaving our family and friends but I don't think about that too often yet. We'll be packing up a penske, towing the worthless Subaru (I say "worthless" cause you all probably think it is, but it really isn't to me. We've been besties since I turned 16) and I'll be driving the super cool Mazda3 behind (or probably in front of) Christian. With Jaydia in the back seat. Wow. Lets not think about that for now.
Either way we'll all be okay as long as we have this,

Oops! I mean this,

The Gift

Thank you for the Gift. You could have been anywhere, with any family, maybe even your biological one. But you found your way to ours instead. And we found our way to you. You belong with us. Forever. So thank you, for the gift of you.

The way you laugh.
The way we laughed the same laugh together.
The way you hated smiling with your teeth, but when you did...Wow.
The way you hugged so tight.
The way you looked at Jaydia.
The way you apologized when you felt bad for something.
The way you rolled your eyes at my silly sense of humor.
The way you love longboarding like I do.
The way you appreciate music the way I do.
The way you always told me to stop singing aloud in the car.
The way you would always sing aloud in your bathroom.
The way you looked at me when I asked a stupid question.
The way you treated all animals.
The way you hated wearing shoes.
The way you intimidated most of my friends.
The way you stood up for who ever was loosing the family argument.
The way you protected the beliefs of others.
The way you love your Mother.
The way you love us all just the way we are.
The way you sat by the fire with me and played "would you rather".
The way you played the flute.
The way you were naturally athletic.
The way you drew.
The way you hated to see other people in pain.
The way you wished you could take pain from others and give it to yourself.

The way in which all who really knew you, could see Christ in the little things you'd do and say. You resembled him more than you ever knew. I wish you would have seen it. Oh it was amazing. Your compassion, your kindness, your bravery, your love, your selflessness.

Maybe because of you, I can be a little more kind. A little more patient. A little more loving. A little more brave. A little more accepting. Maybe because of you, I can be a little more Christlike. So thank you, for The Gift of You!

AF Canyon

We have a little family tradition of going up the canyon in the Ranger every fall. You'd think we'd be experts on getting up there at peak season, but somehow we are always about a week or 2 late. It's still fun and pretty and Jaydia loved the ride. She was such a good girl and it was so fun to be all bundled up together.

Fall Family Pictures

Thanks Leah!

Lullaby to Jaydia 6/5/2011

6/5/2011- The day I had to check-out of the hospital and leave Jaydia.


Josh Groban
Lullaby

Hush now baby don't you cry
Rest your wings my butterfly
Peace will come to you in time
And I will sing this lullaby

Know though I must leave, my child
That I would stay here by your side
And if you wake before I'm gone
Remember this sweet lullaby

And all love through darkness
Don't you ever stop believing
With love forlorn
With love you'll find your way
My love

The world has turned the day to dark
I leave this night with heavy heart
When I return to dry your eyes
I will sing this lullaby

Yes I will sing this lullaby
Oooooohhh

I DID IT!

I did it! And now you can finally view my video at fightergirljayde.blogspot.com if you've been invited. If you haven't and want to be let me know!

I know...

I know that I'm not too good at updating my blog. And it isn't because I've run out of things to say...you all know that could never happen. But I think for the first time in my life the story that should come next on my blog is a strange one, and hard for me to tell. Strange because it's beautiful, scary, sad, happy, heart breaking, heart warming, and so many more things all at once. But I am working on it. Jaydia's birth story will be arriving via a video I am making. Now the reason for it not being done is A. It took me a while before I could look at all the hospital photos without crying. And B. Christian sold my MAC and got a HP (so lame) and the movie making feature is not nearly as easy and user friendly as my MAC. So I'm working on it and it is almost ready for viewing. I'm making a new private blog though in order for you to view the movie. So if you'd like access please leave me your e mail so that if I'd like you to have access you can. It's just a little too personal for me to post publicly but I really don't want to go through the trouble of making my blog private.